I Surrender All

While in Africa this summer I was taught alot about marriage. The ups, the downs, missions as a married couple, etc. Since I have been home from Africa, my prayer for my life has been, "Lord keep me hidden in your heart until it is your timing for me to be with the man you are molding just for me." As I have prayed this prayer I have found so much joy and peace in HIS love. However, there are days like today where the fears try to take over and the lies of the enemy begin to flood my thougths. I know that HE works all things out for my good. And I know that HE does have that special someone out there for me to become one in His son's holy name with, but man alive is it hard to be patient. I am praying that my heart will stay focused on HIM and the places HE has me in right now. I know that HIS love never fails. And I know that it is His delight to place my hand in my future husband's hand.

He has placed it on my heart alot in the last week that HE longs to have this time with me. This is my time to be so consumed and wrapped up in only HIS love. I don't want this season to be a waste. I want to soak up all that HE is showing me. The enemy is trying to steal this season from me by trying to have me believe lies. I am writing this right now to claim that the enemy has nothing on me and that this season of being drenched in my Papa's love will be a season that I will never forget.

"Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal."

2 Corinthians 4:16-18

Calmer of the Storm!!!

When everything is wrong. The day has passed and nothing's done. And the whole world seems against me. When I'm rolling in my bed, there's a storm in my head, I'm afraid of sinking in despair.

CHORUS:
Teach me Lord to have faith In what you're bringing me will Change my life and bring you glory & There on the storm I am learning to let go Of the will that I so long to control. There may I be in your arms eternally. I thank you, Lord, you are the calmer of the storm.

You rebuke the wind and the waves Once again I find I'm amazed & the power of your will Cuz I'm a child of little faith I feel the wind and forget your grace And you say, "Peace, be still."
There on the storm I am learning to let go. The white wave's high, it's crashing o'er the deck And I don't know where I go.

Where are you Lord, is my ship going down? The mast is gone so throw the anchor Should I jump and try to swim to land?

There on the storm, teach me God to understand Of the Will that I just cannot control There may I see all you love protecting me I thank you Lord, you are the calmer of the storm.

Deeper Love...

I am in this season right now where everything is different. My own heart seems different to me and it has been and is going everywhere I have gone and am going. I was able to sit down today for about 10 minutes and just think. It was in this 10 minute period that He reminded me of when I was in Africa this summer. He reminded me of the first couple of weeks that I was there. Nothing in Pemba was familiar. Not even the way I would worship my King. Nothing around me, nothing inside of me was at all familiar. The only thing I could cling tightly too was HIM. He is always familiar. He is always gazing into my eyes with pure and holy passion for my hand to be in His.



I am in an unfamiliar place. Not really anything seems to be normal to me. It is like I was just dropped off here in Knoxville, Tn for the first time and I am having to acclimate myself to living here. I can't really describe it. I feel like while I was in Pemba this summer, the Lord rewired every intricate piece of me. I feel as though my heart is beating to a new beat, the rhythm of His heart. I feel His heart when it is breaking. I feel His heart when He is rejoicing in gladness over me or the place that I am in. I am so much more aware of my surroundings, my words, my thoughts, my friends, the routines of my everyday life. Everything is in a different light.



I feel like the Lord stripped me of all that I had ever known while in Pemba. He stripped me of it all and then filled me with only HIS truth. Since I have been home, it has been hard for me to make all that I learned and experienced this summer my own. I have felt like I was a tornado picking up all kinds of junk, that then serves no purpose other than clouding my heart and mind as I spin around and around trying to figure out where I am suppose to be going and where my place is. Today, the Lord reminded me that I don't have to know where I am going, because He does. He reminded me that I am His daughter and that alone is what will lead me. His deep love is what will move me into motion each and everyday.

GIVING.

Spirit Filled Giving.

Abandoning your life to Jesus and allowing Him to consume all of you.
Giving your time, energy, heart, strength, and LIFE to do His will.
Holding onto things of Heaven and not of this world.
Giving because there is always enough.
Laying down your life for the poor.
Sitting in the dirt with the poor instead of a throne with the rich.
Going to the lowest of the low in order that one might be touched.
Stopping for the one.
Living your everyday life allowing Jesus' light to illuminate out of you.
Giving all that you have because you know that the Lord will multiply what you give.

Romans 12:1-2

Walking in HIS fullness... What does that mean? I believe it means, walking in the shoes that He designed just for you. I believe it means, allowing the Holy Spirit to lead you. I believe it means, having faith that will move mountains. I believe it means, living with nothing hindering you from being all that you desire to be. I believe it means, allowing the power of Jesus Christ in you to heal the blind and raise the dead. I believe it means, believing that the same power that raised Jesus from the dead is in YOU. I believe it means, allowing our sweet Jesus make all of your dreams come true!





The Lord has been showing me how to walk in HIS fullness in and out of my everyday life. It is hard. It is different than the rest of the world. It is powerful. It is freeing. And man alive is it amazing!

LIVING IN HIS FULLNESS.

Allowing Heaven to reign in me.


Reaching into His heart for energy.


Reaching into His heart for boldness.


Reaching into His heart for peace.


Reaching into His heart for joy.


Reaching into His heart for confidence.


Reaching into His heart for excitement.


Reaching into His heart for discernment.


Reaching into His heart for love.


Reaching into His heart for words.


Reaching into His heart for clarity.


Reaching into His heart for strength.


Reaching into His heart for my identity.